How somethings change and they change before you realise that they have changed! Hey was it a stupid observation? But thats the truth in my case! This week and then this weekend told me about some changes that have come in me and I never realised that I have changed till this weekend! And yes I am so very happy with the change that I noticed in me!!!! There is no body I want to thank for this change or maybe there are many!
In the start of the month I again went through the same old story but what I found interesting this time was that I didn’t affect me the way it used to! Ya, I accept that for the first 15-30 mins it did but the intensity wasnt the same as it used to be! As usual I made some impulsive decision but this time rather than sticking to it I thought and realised that what a worthless cause it is! So that plan was cancelled and another was finalised but as luck would have it, my health didnt allow me to carry on with that as well! And then surprises of all the, cause that seemed useless to me was coming in front of me. myself! Though I tried to convince myself that lets go and face it and did some effort in that direction but deep within there was this feelinhg that I dont want to go ahead with it! And as if you get what you want, I didnt have to go through it!
And it turned out to be one of my best weekends! I explored the place at my own. It was for the first time since I have come here in Hyderabad that I commuted in the local bus transport! It was an experience- all alone in local buses! And it was for the first time in my life that I roamed around in shared autos!!!Hey I never knew in just 6 Rs you can go such long distances! 
And I dont know after how many days I was the way I love to be! Hair fully oiled (that made my hair look the way they naturally are, as the coloured hair were not very prominent), tightly tied, kohl, long black designer bindi, a loose khadi kurta, a white cotton duppatta and my ever comfortable Kohlapuri chappals! And without specs!!!
I reached back to my flat late in the evening. It was a good day. I had enjoyed it a lot! The moment I reached home there was an invitation from a friend for dinner. He promised to cook Assamese Non veg! So with him in kitchen and me in front of TV, the hrs just flew away! Back on my flat, all tired but happy! Then I realised that I was supposed to wait for somebody’s call or visit and this thought hadn’t crossed my mind even once! God the moment I realised that I had done something that I had been wanting to for such a long time and now I did it without even realising that I am doing it- Being comfortable with present with no regrets about past, i was so happy! Another achievment, a subtle one!
So life is taking it own course and you have no other choice than to flow with it! And thats the best, believe me!
